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me n brodie
Posted on 2008.07.18 at 23:52
http://stelba.livejournal.com/ 

new, and so fresh and so clean clean.
i don't really know why.
but add, that's my new lj.

me n brodie

one day..

Posted on 2008.07.17 at 22:14
ONE DAY i'll get back into the swing of things.



here, i mean.

lj.




working a lot.
moving out.
again.
i dunno.
we're looking at the possibility of buying.. maybe.. thinkin about it..
we'll see

see whats out there.

buyin' me some Friends.
ahhh, love it. 
and we've been buying a lot of csi lately. just can't help it.
i got some funny pics of the dogs to post.
they'll be coming soon.
i promise.
bye. 

me n brodie

jew

Posted on 2008.05.27 at 12:48

 JEW  is playing in seattle
i would definitely like to go see them,
even though they prolly wouldn't play half the songs i'd like to hear

it'd still be awesome to see them in my lifetime.
one of my favorite bands everrr and still is.

so that'd be nice.
but i don't know who i'd go with.
kirby's not much of a jew fan
and amber is going back to cali soon
so..
can we take dogs?

i'd take one of them if i could.

 

anyway. we'll see.


me n brodie

b'odie

Posted on 2008.05.25 at 21:00

so today
gweedo ran away for a few minutes
and i almost lost brodie
and not the kind of "oh, where'd he go?" kinda loss 
it was like a "oh, brodie accidentally swallowed a rubber ball and almost killed himself"
fuck man
i had to stick my fingers down his throat b/c he was puking all foamy and was eating grass
and after i made him gag
he puked up the ball

it's like
bigger than a golf ball
slightly smaller than a tennis ball

i'd
be 
so lost
without my brodie.
thinking about it makes my heart tingle.
he better live forever.


<3
really. how could i live without that face?

and the rest of the pack, of course:

benson is much bigger now, of course.
and r.i.p. militia :(

anyway.
thats my life.
brodie scared the shitttt out of me today.

sigh.


me n brodie

mornings.

Posted on 2008.05.23 at 07:22

all the time.

i was thinkin bout the past
back back in the day
i miss having not a fckn care in the world
fuck. 
and i didn't even think about it back then
how awesome it really was.

but we move on.

and grow up.

ew.

i look at brodie and a bunch of shit just flashes before my eyes
back to when i got him
and how different everything was
and that was only four years ago
yuck.
fdjaklfjdakl

we gotta get outta here.


me n brodie

no

Posted on 2008.05.18 at 20:01
hello hello helloooo

livejournal makes me feel weird now
that is probably why i don't post as much

i can't describe the feeling
old, maybe.

i wonder what would happen if that happened.
apparently the pecan house is for sale.
i wonder how much for
because my parents sold it at almost half a million
which is ridic
ha. so it would be interesting to know now.
mollie you should do a drive by and tell me one of these days.

thats all.
internet sucks.
bills suck.

i

me n brodie

thanks.

Posted on 2008.04.30 at 22:54
survs. )


me n brodie

dreams for drives

Posted on 2008.04.30 at 22:38
mm m. hopefully moving again soon.
somewhere closer to seattle.

i hate doing laundry. such a pain in the ass.

elementary.
bullshit.

lost a few things 
on the way out.

everyone has a layer. and it doesn't always peel off

until you've disbanded

it would be so much easier to find a place to live in seattle or the surrounding area without dogs
but.
i could never give them up.
so i'm stuck. 




i think i just feel disappointed
in a lot of things

but oh well
life goes on.
if its not going to matter in two weeks it doesn't really matter at all

much loves, though.


never thought i'd say this
but fuck cali
i used to be proud to live there
now i don't know why
ha
what abunchof assholes

me n brodie
Posted on 2008.04.27 at 22:02
sometimes
almost most of the time, i'd rather live with a pack of dogs instead of humans
humans just suck.

 there wasn't much, much to say
friendships often
fade away












if they ban pit-bulls where i live i must move.
i will shoot someone before i let them take my dog and kill it.
assholes.

me n brodie

ah,

Posted on 2008.04.07 at 23:40
 heater isn't working
for some strange reason.
sadness.
coldness.

no work tomorrow.
ah but i'm so tired right now

fuck i need to do my taxes ASAPPPPP

me n brodie

but he's a damn good... laterrrr operatorrr

Posted on 2008.03.28 at 22:53
 radio sucks so much i just listen to the news when i'm cdless in my car

but i hear some interesting shit.
so sometimes it can be fun.

one of these days i'm going to have benson's dna tested or something, apparently you can do that to find out what their parents are.
he is larger than a pit-bull should be, he weighs too much and he still has a year of growing and filling out more and whatnot.

i wish i had a picture of how "too big" he is already.
but i don't think i can find one.

anyway.

so that will be interesting.
to find out if he is what i think he might be.

oh he's such  a fucker
i'm on the tiniest shitty chair and he has to get his big ol' self up here with me.

laptop battery sucks as
and the charger is plugged in, but it has decided to be super finicky and only work when the cable is in some awkward, annoying position.

sigh.

i have aim again
and my two friends that still use it aren't on.
makes me sad.
aim is weird.
it's all..
different.

there is too much shit, though
just everywhere
all over your buddy list
looking all cluttered.

looking forward to cali again soon.
not the drive, so much. 
but roadtrips with people you love are always fun
mm.
anyway.

i write letters and never send them
i don't fucking get it.
i put it in the envelope, with a stamp and the address
and it just never gets sent. 
it makes me feel horrible.

stoney
bored.
no work tmrw.
i can't wait for when our whole vocabulary is nothing but abbreviations.

blink the eyes, they are dry.
wish i had a fire going.
it has been snowing the past two days
SNOWING 
doesn't stick around for long, but it's almost april and it's snowing.
wtf
i like it though. 
benson, not so much.
falkor effin LOVES it, it makes him extra bouncy.

i wish more sunny in philly would come out
i've been watching the same dvds over and over again

again.
no cable sucks.

no couch sucks.

it gets cold too fast in here.
and when the heater is on, the temperature keeps going up and up until you turn it off.
it does not listen to whatever you set it at.
wheep.

me n brodie

you know, you know

Posted on 2008.03.26 at 20:29
 i am bored.
and kind of hungry.
but not much to eat.
:(

i'm tired of doing laundry.
i do surveys, instead.
hoo
ray.





 

me n brodie

life work

Posted on 2008.03.22 at 15:47
so i took benny to meet diesel. 
i've been calling him benny a lot lately. instead of benson. but he is such a benny. big-ass dork. 
anyway.
so diesel is a pit-bull mix that looks like he was tied up on a short chain under a car his whole life. he has scars all over his body, but clearly not from fighting. just from human abuse. he was emaciated when he came in, but after lisa's good ol' fattening diet, his ribs are barely visible. so everything is new to him. he's never had a warm bed, a nice meal, met a cat or another dog, he's never had a massage or a nice big hug before bedtime. until he came to our shelter. and he is adjusting really well to everything. he was said to have had food aggression to humans when he came in, but never showed any of that with us. just seemed so grateful for a nice, big meal. you can take the food from his bowl and feed it to him out of your hand. 
so, diesel has improved a lot.
i took benson for diesel to meet because benson has excellent dog manners. 
he greets all dogs exactly like he should, no rudeness, and he's never pushy.
so i wanted diesel to have a good experience.

and it was really nice to see it all unfold.

within a few minutes benson and diesel were running and playing with each other.
benson had to correct him like, two times. because diesel kept trying to hump benny. he put up with it for the most part, but had to give a few looks. 

i am just constantly facinated with the canine, and their way of communicating, and how every single canine.. no matter what the breed, speaks the same language. 

so i can sit and watch it for days. and just observe. and take it all in.
and learn.
i love dogs
they are constantly teaching me so many things.

i can't wait for everyone  to meet benson.
he's a big love, with a face no one can resist.

and he looks to be a cane corso.
we'll see when he is fully grown.


i NEED A COUCH.  or a huge bean bag.

 

me n brodie

bitchbitchbitch

Posted on 2008.03.19 at 15:59
 cali again soon.
hopefully gary is still coming up to visit before then.

i wish Best Friends wasn't located in utah.
or that utah was cooler and all of my friends wanted to move there too. 
because Best Friends animal shelter is exactly 
what i want to support
and where i'd love to work
it's exactly what i want to get out of life.

fuck.
utah.
bah.

i love my job
i just don't like the people.
i love the dogs.
but i don't like the decisions.
and.
i dunno.





so i guess i'm gonna look for places to board benny for like 5 hours while we're at my bro's graduation
i hope it's not that expensive
i just want him to be somewhere safe while i'm watching thomas graduate

thats all.

sigh.


i hate doing laundry.
i miss having cable.
it sucks not being able to watch all the shit i used to watch
it sucks being broke.



it sucks that i can't get over time

i'm glad the dogs are knocked out.
all that ball playin kicked their asses
three cheers.


i wish i had a couch.

me n brodie

we all pooped in the tuba

Posted on 2008.03.08 at 22:07



1. What is the status of you and the last person you texted?  i don't know. my phone hasn't been working for a while.

2. Whats wrong with you right now?  nothing is wrong. i'm ready for bed.

3. Do you miss your first love?  he's in the other room.

4. When did you last cry?   some days ago.

5. Who do you hate?  people and how cruel, and cold they can be.
 
6. What do you want in your life right now?   clean clothes.

7. Are you happy?  yeah. i miss friends though.

9. What do you smell like? weed and green tea.

10. Drinking? DP

11. What’s your favorite thing to have on your bed? i like it when benson gets up in the morning to cuddle.

12. If you could change something in your life, what would it be?  i'd have more shoes.

13. What do you wear to bed? whatevers comfy

14. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?  no, i dont think so

15. How do you feel about the person you got this survey from?  i found it randomly

16. Are you friends with all of your exes?  i dont have any, really.

17. What’s something you wish you could understand better?  thats too much thinking for right now

18. Who's the last person you visited in the hospital? lisa

26. Whose house did you go to last night? my moms, maybe? or not. i dont think i did. i stayed home.

27. What about the night before that? n/a

28. Do you like anyone right now? <3kirba

29. Are you bored? kinda. and tired.

30. What is the last movie you watched? grandmas boy

32. What are you excited about? comfy bed

33. Do you want something you can't have? always. lack of funds.

35. When you sleep do you dream about heroine addicts? wtf...

36. What’s on your mind right now? sleep.

37. Who was the last person to make you cry? eh

38. Name someone whose name starts with the letter "R"    rachel

39 is gone.

41. Do you trust people easily? i dont think so. maybe, though.

43. Do you think you'll be married in 10 years? probably  not

44. What do you look forward to in the next 3 months? seein my bro graduate from boot camp  and goin back to bako for a day or two

45. Who was the last person you called?   my mom, i think

46. Who was the last missed call? bur?

47. What's your ring tone? my phone is dead. i use kir's. and his ringtone is shine on you crazy diamond

48. Do you plan on moving out within the next year? i dont' know, i guess we'll see

49. What were you doing at 8pm Friday night?  probably sitting at home.

50. What happened at 10:00 am today?  sleep.


 

Ten Lasts

1. Person you called/who called you:   jfldajl
2. Person you texted/who texted you:
3. Restaurant you ate at:  shari's
4. Movie you saw in theaters:  bah. 300?
5. Relationship:  still going
6. Song you listened to: echos
7. Thing that made you smile:  family guy. watching atm
8. Book you finished: cesar's way
9. Person you hugged/who hugged you: kir
10. Time you were physically injured: ha, t oday i fell all over some  rocks

Ten Favorites

1. Color: blues/greens
2. School Subject: art/english
3. Vacation: anywhere.
4. Book: eh
5. Movie: eh 
6. Way to Earn Money: doin what i like
7. CD: eh
8. Song: echos
9. Quote: "climb your favorite apple tree, try to catch the sun"
10. Song Lyric: same as above

Ten Musical Things

1. Do you play an instrument?:  no
2. Are you listening to music right now?: no
3. If so, what song?:
4. Name a singer you used to listen to often: 
5. A band?: pf
6. A singing group?:
7. Any genres of music that you won't tolerate?:
8. Band/singer/group you recently discovered?:
9. Name a song you can't stand: low rider
10. Any song/artist you and your parents both like?: pf

Ten Have You Evers

1. Been dumped?: yeah
2. Dumped someone?: no
3. Been to another continent (which one)?: england
4. Failed a test?: yes, plenty
5. Been drunk?: yes
6. Cried yourself to sleep?: no, but i've woken up from sleep crying
7. Been in a wedding?: when i was way little
8. Traveled by yourself?: yeah
9. Kissed someone you didn't like?: yeah
10. Done something you regretted?: no

Ten Currents

1. Music:  pf
2. Mood: sleepy
3. Plans for today: today is almost over
4. Wish/Hope:   to get where i want to.
5. Should be doing: whatevs.
6. Talking to:  no one
7. Waiting for: nothin
8. Grade/Occupation:  "animal care specialist" ha. 
9. Reading:  photographic guide to dog body language
10. Best Friend(s): burr/skii/molls


 - If you had eaten an apple a day since birth, how many apples would you have eaten by now?
                 22 -
 How many times have you been on a boat?
               once     
- In romance, are you usually the chaser or the chased?
               chaser, it seems. -
 Are you afraid of the dark?
             outside in the dark. i have the worst eyes ever. -
 What is one thing on which you are an expert?
                 if anything, dogs. -
 Have you ever fractured a bone?
                    no. -
 What board or card game do you play best?
                solitaire.
How many hats do you own?
            zero.  hoodies, instead. 
- What kind of ice (cubes, shaved, other) do you prefer in a cold drink?
          crushed 
- Have you served on a jury?
            no, i can't.
 
- If you were a kitchen utensil, what would you be?
                   a small spoon. 
- How did you discover LiveJournal?
                          hmm.. i can't remember. someone i knew was using it, maybe. 
- How much money do you have in your pocket or purse right now?
                change. 
- If you had chosen your own name at birth, what would have been your first and middle names?
               i dont know, really 
- What turns you off?
          ignorance. attitudes. 
- What political party do you favor?
                  eh   -
 If you could ask your parents one question, what would it be?
                      what? i ask them questions all the time. 
- What radio station do you listen to most often?
                  107.7 in the morning for the adam carolla show 
- Can you swim?
                 yes 
- What toy did you want as a child but failed to ever get?
           uhmm.. i dont know. didn't really care 
- Who is your favorite uncle?
                eh 
- What is your most valued possession?
              my animals 
- Can you whistle?
                    yes 
- Have you ever seen an X-rated movie?
                        yes 
- If you could change one thing about yesterday, what would it be?
                      nothing 
- Have you ever caught your hair in a zipper?
             yes and it sucked.

                          

me n brodie

days go by. oh man, do they.

Posted on 2008.03.07 at 23:32
who the fuck is miley cirus?
i see her everywhere
but..
i haven't seen her anywhere 
atthe same time.
know what i mean?

me n brodie

grumps.

Posted on 2008.03.05 at 20:05
 hrmm. this was an accident.

i got nothini to say
works been kickin my ass

so has home
i dont know

i could totally go to sleep right now.
i can always fall asleep at 8 pm.
its ridic. 

this show kicks ass.
i'm glad we got a new dvd player.
one day i can get cable again.
one day..
sigh.

i wanna cuddle with benny
but he's all up on the chair
i miss having a couch.

me and benson used to cuddle all the time on the couch
hes so squishy and warm
but now we don't have a couch so that sucks.



today in the middle of cleaning the dog runs i noticed that like.. there was a newt being squished in half by one of the guillotine doors in the dog kennel
i couldn't figure out what it was so i was pulling on his tail.
and it felt really fckn weird so i lifted up the dog door and he was just chillin there.. didn't really seem that fucked up from the door being slammed on his body.
but anyway. 
i picked him up by his tail and he just held his mouth open at me
and then  i sent him on his way 
towards the woods
i was kinda surprised the dogs didnt fuck with him

im prolly gonna go to sleep early tonight.
go in to work a little bit early.
i get bored a lot.
benson is snoring.

i guess i'll watch more of this and fall asleep on the ground with the dogs
thats always fun
i <3 the pack.

me n brodie

weird.

Posted on 2008.02.26 at 23:25
sometimes i don't feel human.
for a few seconds i feel like everything around me is nothing
and everything is nothing
it's useless, and pointless, and just full of nothing

its a strange feeling.
it doesn't last long
but it makes me feel like something else

do you like to watch comedy central? when i have tv.
how often do you visit your grandmother? they are all far away. it's not often.
how many people on your myspace friends list would care if you died? i'd say maybe half. at least half are close or semi-close friends/family.
would you rather write in pen or pencil? pen. dark, black, and bold.
do you like highlighters? sure.
can you understand spanish? tiny bit.
do you know how to clean a ball mouse? yes.
are you considered to be a nerd? i dont think so?
do you know how to bowl? not well at all.
do you know anybody with a really weird name? no. i probably have the weirdest one.
can you do splits? nope.
do you like baseball? eh. to play. maybe.
would i have to pay you to ride a rollercoaster? no. but that'd be nice.
do you like dogs? love 'em.
are you allergic to anything?  random medicines.
have you ever tasted a habanero pepper? nooo.. i don't think so.
have you ever used a crayon on a marker board? no..
do you enjoy babysitting? not humans, anyway.
whats your favorite card game? none
do you own an atlas? no
do you even know what an atlas is? some kinda big book of maps?
do you blast your music until the neighbors get angry? no. plus, i don't really have neighbors.
do you watch the sci-fi network? sometimes.
are you still into cartoons? family guy and what not
do you owna wii? no.
have you ever caught a fly in your hand?  no.
name your youngest male relative: i dont know. i have many relatives that have been born that ive never met.
would you ever dye your hair bubblegum pink? no, probably not.
do you use oven mitts? i dont have any, but i'd like to.
have you ever been dared to eat anything gross? sure, i dont think i ever have though.
have you ever beaten up anyone? no.
do you know how to set up a vcr? im sure.
are you a survey junkie? no.
do you own an mp3 player?
  no.


three things
three names you go by:    kristel, stel, belba.
three things youre wearing right now: jeans, sweater, mismatched socks
three things youre doing right now: typing. reading. sitting.

about your life
whats your name? kristel.
how old are you? 22.
where were you born?  england.
 where do you live now?   washington
how many siblings do you have?   3 bros.
are your biological parents together?   no.
are you happy with your life right now?   for the most part. i miss friends.
what pets do you have?    three dogs and one cat. who recently got shaved.

just some Q's
favorite color: blues/greens.
favorite number:  one eighty-eight
what do you drive? white kia spectra
who do you live with? kirba
where did you go to school? ridgeview high school
did you enjoy high school? meh.
what grades did you get? good enough to graduate.

more pointless questions
favorite channel: animal planet/national geographic
favorite tv show: friends/scrubs
do you like your style? it's messy, dirty, and poor.    not really.
do you wear glasses? yes. not all the time. only when driving.
what size shoes do you wear? 9.
are you wearing shoes right now? no.
are you usually cold?   noo? well, i guess my hands are cold almost all the time.
how cold is it outside?   40 somethin.

what do you do
at home? read/watch tv/write/play w/ dogs
outside? play with the doggies
when you first wake up? check the time,
in the middle of the night?    sleep. 
to think about things?      go somewhere quiet.

favorites
store: eh.
animal: canines.
thing to do:    sleep. and paint.
state: eh
music: eh
movie: eh
hangout:      my home.
thing about yourself:      ability to remember 60+ dogs names, and personalities, sex, etc.
cuss word: i say fuck too much.

your future
do you want to go to college? sure.
do you want to live in a city? nah. i like the country. its weird, when i was younger i thought i'd be a city person. but i'm def not.
do you have someplace in mind?  forest.
what occupation would you like to have?   rehabilitating  dogs w/ severe behavior problems
do you think you can do it?  yes. i'm slowly getting there
do you want to get married?: i pretty much am.
do you want to have kids? only dogs.

have you ever
been kicked out of school? no. ive been kicked off a bus b/c i had a glass plate with cake on it in my hands.
been in a fight?  no,
performed onstage? when i was way little.
danced in the rain? probably.
sat on your rooftop? on the pecan house
made out in a theater? no
been horseback riding? no
been to six flags?  yesm
done anything you regret? i dont regret.
if you could change anything, what would you change?  nothing.

random
do you believe in karma? yes
do you sing? no
when life sucks, who do you turn to? kirba and my madre/padre
do you play any instruments? no
do you drive? yes
what do you drive? didn't i answer this already?
do you own an ipod? no
yahoo id?      no
do you enjoy shopping?      eh. when i  have the money to shop.
do you have a cell phone?  yeah but its currently  not working
do you talk on it a lot?   ...
would you give your number out to a stranger? no
do you own anything from louis vuitton?  haha
what are you afraid of?     idiots.
are you in a band?  no
did you graduate high school? yes
if you had a llama, what would you name it?          lanky
can you speak a different language?   dog.
have you ever gone camping?    yeah
who could you stand to be tied to for 24 hours?   kirby.
are you bored at the moment?   kind of.
what state do you live in?   washington.
do you like it there?  yeah.
what do you have under your bed? i dont have an under the bed
what about in your closet? clothes.
do you have any piercings?  yes.
did you brush your teeth this morning? yes
how many TVs are there in your house? one. i want one for my room though.
one person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to?    no one.

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